Dear Heavenly Father Remember me?
Yeah, I know its been a long time since the last time we talked. But things were going pretty good. And I didnt figure youd want me buggin you about getting better gas mileage on my car. Or making my girlfriend stop holding out on oral sex when she wants me to do shit around the house. Which, if you ever see her up there, before you let her in, ask her: Whats with the teeth? Not that youre probably gonna see her at all after some of the crazy shit we was into. But if you do, do me a favor, and ask about the teeth.
And not that I dont appreciate the MPGs I already get on my car. Im just saying, why cant I get good mileage without sacrificing performance? Or having to trade down to some P.O.S. hybrid that costs an arm and a leg? But thats what Im saying. Im not gonna waste your time with that kinda piddly dick. The car is fine. Its my cross to bear, and I bear it.
And thats the main reason you havent heard from me since the war. Trust me, if I thought you liked hearing people bitch and moan about every little problem, Id be on my knees five times a day like a freakin Muslim. But I saw what you thought of those people when I was over there, so Im not even gonna cross that line.
The way I figure it, you and me got an understanding, am I right? Dont ask, dont tell, no harm done, and see you at the Pearly Gates. And if youre not happy with that arrangement, Im sure you got ways of letting me know.
Only now I got this cancer.
And theyre saying its uncurable. Or, no, its untreatable. They probably got the cure right there in the desk drawer. But the treatment? Thats gonna cost you, buddy. And your insurance dont cover it, so go to hell. The doctor says I shoulda got it looked at sooner, but how am I supposed to do that when I dont even know I have it in the first place? Im not telekinetic! And now its too late So, yeah, thanks a lot for that Lord. That was real smooth.
So now Im fucked.
And I know what youre thinkin, I do, but I wasnt even gonna ask. Im not sayin it wouldnt be nice But I figure if you thought I was worth a miracle, you wouldnt have wasted time givin me cancer in the first place. So I wasnt even gonna mention it. Like I said, I did all my askin in the war, and you really came through for me over there. Especially the time my platoon got wiped out by a roadside and all I lost was a toe. And I thanked you for that, if you remember. But I ended up missing that toe a lot more than I thought I would at the time. But still I never took back what I said. You were there for me. Well, 99% there. And dont think I dont appreciate that.
But I saw a whole lot of mother fuckers you werent there for, and I know some of them prayed a hell of a lot more than I did. Hell, the whole Muslim army prayed more than I did. But fuck them, right, Lord? So I get it. I was lucky. I dodged my share of bullets. But your times your time. And when it comes around you better be packed and ready to go, cause theres no use beggin. Youre gonna die anyway. You just look like a pussy doing it.
So I guess this is my time.
And, at least I got some advance notice. Not like those fuckers in Iraq. Not even a warning shot across the windshield for some of them. So I guess I should thank you for that, too. For the heads up. Givin me a chance to get my affairs in order. And get right with you.
So I emptied out my bank account, so the ex-wife cant get at it. I took the dogs out to my friend Arvid. Hes got a ranch. And I went down to Wal-Mart and charged up every videogame they had on my credit card for the kids. I may not be there to watch em grow up, but Ill make damn sure theyre the most popular kids in school. For this year, at least. Its not like the credit cards gonna repossess an orphan kids video cartridge. And its not technically stealing if I dont default on the payments, which Ill already be dead and gone to heaven before that happens. So fuck them. And I watered the plants. So thats everything.
Now I figure I just got a get my soul straightened out, and you can take me whenever youre ready. Hows that for cooperative? So I guess Im supposed to apologize for my sins now. But I havent really done anything. Nothing special. I mean, just the usual stuff. You cant really count what happened over seas.
(has to think about it)
One time, I slapped my kid in front of my other kid, and they both cried. I feel bad about that.
I guess I did other things too. But you know what it is. Just go through my records and forgive me for the bad stuff, if thats okay. I dont want to take up your time. And God knows I dont have any to spare. So whatever I did, I apologize. And please forgive me, hows that?
Except the time I smacked that priest. Im not sorry about that. And I dont care if he did sue me afterwards. That was his fault and I dont take it back. Wheres it say in the Bible you get to spit on people for serving their country? Yeah, I know there werent any witnesses. But thats only because none of his peace protestor buddies would come forward and tell the truth. The same fucking hypocrites wont turn in a priest for child molesting, so of course theyre not gonna squeal on one for spitting on a veteran. But I felt it. And you saw it, God. So case close. Regardless of what that activist judge says.
Because even if thats not what happened, and I just imagined it, like theyre saying. He still spit on me just by being there. Me and every man over there. Who was just doing what we were supposed to. Its called duty. Maybe youve heard of it? Why isnt that in the 10 commandments, heavenly father? Can you tell me that? How come they dont got a big peace sign symbol you can wave in the air for duty or patriotism?
You dont tell a soldier in wartime that peace is a higher priority than winning. If you never been to war, you dont know the first thing about peace. Talk to me about whats right and wrong after you had to kill a few enemy insurgents in defense of your country, then try to tell me whats so great about peace. Those protestors oughta thank me, cause if they had it their way, wed all be worshiping Allah instead of the pope. And Im not even catholic.
Seriously, this is what I risked my life for? I gave up a year of college and part of my foot! for this asshole priest? And Kev Roy and Marty gave up a hell of a lot more than that, because they never came back at all. And Im supposed to sit still while this most-likely child molester tries to tell me they shouldnt have been in the line of fire in the first place?
So, yeah, maybe I hit him. So what? Im glad I did. And, yeah, I called him some things that are a sin. But if sayin a sins a sin, then fuck it. Thats one sin. Youre not gonna keep me outta heaven for that are you, Lord? Better fuckin not, is all I gotta say. Cause Ill tear some shit up if I get to Paradise and they dont let me in because of some bullshit I did in the war.
Especially if I get there and find out you let that priest in ahead of me. If I see that bastard grinning at me through the Pearly Gates, then theyre coming off at the hinges. Cause I dont put up with that crap. I fought for my country. Im not gonna burn in hell while some faggot gets his wings. Youre gonna have war protestors outside your gates if thats how it works. Only they wont be a bunch of peacenik hippy faggots. Because Ill go down and get every so-called baby-killer and Abu Ghraib prison guard in hell to march around outside your front door, Lord. And then youll know how it feels.
Only now I think about it, I dont know if we even want in, if the place is gonna be full of people who think peace is such a great idea. Hell is starting to sound better and better. Id rather spend eternity burning with my brothers, than sucking cock with a bunch of child molesters and cowards who like harp music. If thats all it gets me, then fuck you. I dont apologize. Go ahead and try to burn me.
I swear to God that better not be what this cancer is, Lord. If youre too much of a pussy to kill me in the war, and this is how you take me out now? If thats what this is, Lord, then youre a fuckin faggot. And I dont care who that pisses off. Fuck you. I did what I had to do, and if you dont see that, then you dont deserve to be God.
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